What it means to wear His collar

i have had what are clearly BDSM and D/s fantasies, dreams and even a fully developed imaginary world for as far back as i can remember. The man that would collar me in those fantasies was always extraordinary. He was wicked and even cruel but he was also the ultimate lover, provider and care-giver. He was the gentleman that every woman wanted to marry, the lover that every lover ached for, and the sadist that every masochist longed to put faith in. He was a Master and i was His slave.

You see, being a masochist is a dangerous thing. There are many masochists that failed to fulfill their needs in a healthy way. There are many in abusive relationships now. There are some that are in jail. There are others in mental hospitals and still more in congress.

In order to truly explore as a masochist one needs a sadist that is responsible, and knowledgable. That is hard to find. As a masochist, i scare myself.

The only way i can truly let go is if i know i am safe in the hands of someone i have complete faith in. When i am with Master, i have absolutely no doubt that i am safe. He has taken the time to build my faith in Him and demonstrated time and again that He will protect me, even from myself.

In the case of this particular masochist, there is also the fact that i am a lover. The core of my being yearns to love and be loved. i have structured my life so that i can express my love for the world and others everyday.

It is rare to find those individuals that simply want to love and be loved. Master is one of those rare individuals.

I am a submissive masochist lover. i need to know that i serve and please. i need to know that my suffering is an act of love, and that i am loved for it in return. Master makes it very clear everyday that my suffering pleases Him, that He adores me for being a a masochist slut and that He is proud of me.

Finding a Dom to take responsibility for my body when it is being whipped is one thing, i have found many and did not ask to be collared. One that will take responsibility for my heart when I am falling deeper in love is another. i found those too, loved and experienced heartbreak and still never wore a collar.

Master has shown without a doubt that he not only desires to but is more than capable of taking responsibility for my total wellness of spirit, mind, heart and body for the rest of my life, and for that, i beg for His collar.

Master is such an intense lover and has brought me such incredible pleasure that my body literally aches for Him always. The more Master uses me the more I desire His use. Master is a knowledgable sadist that has taken the time to learn and practice numerous skills as well as study His own nature and desires.

Master is honest. He sets goals and He meets them. He is reasonable and has proven that He is the care giver this little girl has needed. Master is a leader by nature and i have found that when i follow Him i am led down a happy and successful path. I have faith in his guidance in regards to all aspects of my life and turn over all control to Him, including but not limited to financial, professional, physical, emotional, sexual, and spiritual pursuits.

i will suffer whatever tortures he wishes in order to prove my love and devotion.

i will express with great passion whenever i have the opportunity how much I desire to be His, how grateful i am for the opportunity to prove myself, and how eager i am for any tests He wishes me to complete.

i will be completely open and vulnerable to Him, available for His use at any time for any purpose.

When Master feels i am ready, i will wear His collar and His collar only with honor in my heart, swelling in my groin, and pride in my stature.

i commit myself to Him completely for the rest of my life. This is a decision that i only make once. i have never been collared before and will never wear another collar again. i belong completely to Master Dan. i am His to collar when He feels i have earned it.

Master Dan, Daddy, is The Master that I have dreamed of since I was a little girl. my soul has belonged to Him always, and in this life I give my body and mind to Him again.

Please, Master, Your slut desperately seeks to earn Your collar.